this is a photo of me, on my 35th birthday!!! corey took it!!!! hahaha, so i was hamming it up a little bit!
so i was sitting here, reading Stephen King's book, Needful Things. i'm not sure if i will recommend it yet or not.. but damn, it's eery...
so one of the things that is really bothering me about this book is the owner of the store, who is obviously evil, although i haven't figured out yet who, or more likely 'what' he is, shakes everyone's hands. and every time he does, they have a strong unpleasant emotional reaction.
so my mind took off on a tangent, and my usual recourse is to follow it through, think huh, shake my head and get back to whatever it was i was doing..... but this time i thought, nope. i'm gonna blog it! and so here it is........
so i started thinking about touching.... and when the last time i shook someones hand was..... and how it felt.
yes, i'm married. so of course, i touch my husband and children a hundred times a day, so it's not touch itself, but..... i think when you've been married awhile, 13 years for me, being touched becomes an intimate thing. a boundary people don't cross. am i crazy?? ok, maybe i am meaning men....?
when i was younger, i was very touchy feely. always hugging, linking arms.... now it's just weird. so anyway, i digress. the other day, i took the kids and went for a hike with friends, and wanted a photo taken of myself and a friend, and i grabbed her and linked arms with her. and felt her stiffen up, then relax at the inevitability of it... heehee. so it's not just me....
but it's not me touching others that had me thinking, but others touching me.
you all remember how i almost died of, well soooo many emotions, last year, in the arms of my smoking hot salsa instructor!!! ( i still visit that every now and again.... * wink wink * )
and since then, only 2 other instances jumped out at me... both happened around 3 weeks ago..... and my response was rather conspicuous.
i was standing in the kitchen of friends before dinner, and we were discussing cold hands. yea, i know. haha
have me over for dinner, my conversation is very stimulating! heeheehahahahahaha
anyway. i am always hot, but my hands are almost always cool. and i reached out and grabbed *him* on the forearm. i swear, i swear!, he jumped. not from the coldness, but from the unexpected touch. and then we made eye contact, and 'something' was exchanged there. and it was weird. isn't that weird?????
but in reality, we are all used to being touched by our significant others and so when someone else, maybe even someone you are 'slightly' attracted to, touches you..... it's intimate.
and the other time, which is kind of burned in my memory.... in fact, when i think of it, i can still feel the warmth, and 'buzz' of it. i was at ringette, and old friends whom i haven't seen in a couple years walked in... and he made eye contact with me 3 times before recognizing me!!!! hahaha. then he came over and reached out for my hand, clasped it and took it in his other hand as well. and all i could think of was, how big and warm and firm and wonderful it felt......... sigh. LOL!!!! your thinking i am nuts for telling you this.......
now keep in mind, i am NOT a guy, so i am NOT thinking with my penis!!!!
in fact,writing that word just made me laugh....... hahaha. SO glad i am not a guy and don't have to think of or say that word often, or people would wonder what i was giggling about all the time.
so as i was saying.... touching, just regular handshake type touching, what was once something i did on a regular, offhand basis, has now become an intimate thing to me. yes, i will admit, this does make me sound very sheltered.... and you know what, as a married woman, i AM sheltered! i do not, and am not touched by men, EVER, let alone on a regular basis..... or EVER, heehee. and to be honest, i hadn't really thought of it, until this book, which is making a really big deal about this guy's handshake and the reactions to it...... like i'm not creeped out enough......
alright, your gonna have to share your thoughts this time, otherwise i am going to feel very foolish.... and weird, and vulnerable..... so dish girls.....
i don't need you to tell me about what intimate touching you have been doing!!! hahaha. just that i'm not squirrelly.
sigh....
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